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Alright so I am afraid to commit. Especially when children are involved. The agency and the home study lady (for the adoption) are waiting on us to give them the go ahead. But I'm scared. Once we apply and the process is started, there's no going back. I've been praying and praying for direction from the Lord. I got two small confirmations a couple of Sundays ago, but I am like Gideon and I want to put the fleece out again just to make sure. God has not closed any doors, but my fears tend to paralyze me. Please pray for us as we make the next step in this process! I just want to do God's will.
I didn't do much again today. I am really struggling with depression. I never get down and stay down. I don't know what's going on. I have set some goals (weight loss wise) that I started today, so maybe having some goals will help. Also I don't like cold weather. I tend to curl up in a ball and stay there. It's suppose to turn warm again next week, so maybe I will get out and work on my car and go for walks again.
Alex got a good work out with his OT this evening. He has weak muscles, especially his stomach, so the OT put kinesio? tape on his tummy and back which forces his muscles to work. He got a little hyper after that! She got him to do quite a few things so I hope it wore him out enough so he will sleep in a bit in the morning. :)
That's it for tonight!